Falling

Six months ago I made a decision.

A decision to go back into the corporate world. A decision to enter into the world of lies and deceit and manipulation and self promotion that I despise. However, it was a decision I knew I was being lead to. Lead to by the master shepherd and protector and provider. Was I scared? Yes. Was it what I wanted to do? No. Was I assured it was the right thing to do? Yes.

It was as if everything was falling into place. Even though it wasn’t necessarily how I thought or expected it would happen.

Six months later I feel as though everything is falling apart. Everything. It hasn’t happened over night. It’s been coming for a while and I sit here and wonder why. Why this keeps happening to me. Why He is doing this to me. And yet I still know I made the right decision. But I still ask the question why and I’m not sure I’ll get an answer. And I’m not sure what I'm going do. I guess for now, I’ll just keep turning to the only One I know to turn to.